A Little More on Track

Well, I'm heading in the right direction. I had a good day and got back on track a bit. The next day was good mostly except that we had pub night at our church complete with bar food and drinks, so needless to say that wasn't a great day. And tonight I have a birthday party. But I still think I'm doing better overall. So we'll see at my weigh-in this coming week.

Seriously???

I haven't posted on here in a long time. And that's always a bad sign when it comes to this blog, given the purpose of it.

I admit that I've let a bit of weight sneak back on. I won't say how much. I'm going to give myself a week to get back on track since I usually lose more pounds my first week getting back on track. Then I'll update my weight loss ticker.

I'm pretty bummed with myself. The sad thing is that lately I've been shoving everything in my mouth and just NOT caring. It doesn't make sense. How could I not care after working SO HARD to get off 25 pounds last year. I want my goal weight so badly.

Part of it is that I've had so much stress and change in my life lately and I'm an emotional eater. So I need to look at this as a learning experience. What I NEED to learn if I'm ever going to lose all of my weight and keep it off is how to deal with life without running to chocolate and other dairy products.

Also, I'm considering the idea of giving up dairy again. I gave up dairy for a short while when Boo was a baby because his eczema was terrible and I noticed that dairy aggravated his skin. I cut out all dairy, not just the obvious stuff, but all of the hidden forms of dairy too. It was rough, especially at first, but I learned how to manage life without dairy. I only did this for about 3-4 months. He was able to tolerate dairy better as he got a bit older. Part of the time was during Thanksgiving and Christmas. That was a bit rough. So why would I consider giving up dairy again? I felt GREAT. I had more energy. I didn't experience nearly as many mood swings. My cravings dried up after an initial intense period. I do think that I'm one of those people that has an unhealthy reaction to dairy. Having a little bit causes me to crave it nonstop. And once I start eating it I have a hard time moderating the amount that I consume. I lost weight without trying. No weight watchers, no sparkpeople, nothing. I didn't have to count or track anything. My body was just responding to a diet that consisted of pretty much no processed foods. I was trying healthy new recipes because my old ones no longer worked. I cooked a lot more and loved that part of it.

Here's some things that I would not be able to have if I choose to go the no dairy route. Ice cream, chips w/ sour cream, cheese, milk, butter, most cookies and crackers, many breads, and the list goes on and on. At the time I did it, I definitely felt that it was worth it. It's just, well, hard. Now that I have daycare going full-time it would be especially hard. I'd have to be really on top of planning in order to accomplish this.

For now, I'm just pondering this. But I'm going to try to get back on track with sparkpeople starting today because I just can't let anymore weight creep back on. I'll be devastated if I allow anymore to creep on. So I will start with that while I give serious thought to the no dairy lifestyle.